February 14, 2006
In the mood for a bit of poetry so heres what I’m thinking……..
At this moment:
I’m sitting in a lab;
no one else here.
Its just me.
Alone as usual.
The only noises;
the tap of the keys beneath my fingers.
The whir of the heat sync.
Nothing else.
Too quiet here;
Not a huge fan of such silence.
Peace a different kettle of fish.
Minds wandering.
Used to that;
At this stage.
One of my personal idiosyncrasies.
I know where its gone.
February 4, 2006
Apart from the gig today has been great! just relaxing and taking it easy! Spent this evening playing my electric guitar (its great to take a bit of a break from my acoustic and let it rip on occasion ;)) and browsing the internet at the same time (see fig.1 :P)
When I wasn’t playing guitar or browsing the internet I spent time playing with my dog Pippin; I suppose I haven’t mentioned Pip yet; he’s a wire haired Daschund (sausage dog) and I have a habbit of talking to him about life the unverse and whatnot (don’t be alarmed…… everyone does it :P) I took this picture of him at Christmas time (If you’re wondering why he has a bow around his neck its because my twin sister likes to torture small animals for fun on feast days :P)
I got the recording back from the Gig in Ryan’s on the 27th and I couldn’t be happier with it although it does seem strange in parts where I’m engaging in friendly banter with the crowd and all you can hear are my replies! Its was really weird hearing myself recorded properly for the firt time! I have to say a big thanks to Paul Harmon for mastering it and Kev for doing the sound engineering, lads you’re legends! but you know that…… you got the drunken new years eve text message 
Now I just have to make that special copy 
And maybe a pit of poetry…………..
GIG:
Its silent up here;
They’re waiting, expecting, anticipating.
The weight is on you now;
Don’t screw up.
Make a mistake;
Just keep going thats all.
Bright lights make you sweat.
Or is it nerves?
Good crowd tonight;
Can’t let them down.
Start with the easy numbers;
Build up bit of confidence.
Nothing like a gig.
February 3, 2006
Typical friday; apart from the fact that I’m playing a gig tonight. Sitting in the worlds most boring networking lab dealing with questions such as:
Riveting stuff its times like this I regret my inability to do anything remotely matematical. I’ll get through it though; just taking a break from it for a minute.
Gig tonight; only a wee bit nervous; printed out my first ever set list last night. Felt all professional and stuff to see my name on it. Even if it was entitled “Kens first EVER setlist FOR DUMMIES!”. Looking forward to hearing Peter Doran play aswell I’m a big fan of his solo acoustic stuff on “The Birds” demo; should be a cracker of a gig. I’m only on for approx 30 mins which is perfect. Thats all I was hoping for in truth 
Should be a great weekend; I get to pick up the mastered cd of the gig last week and finally hear what I sound like onstage lots of copies to make aswell; but only one signed one nothing else planned apart from that but I’m sure I’ll end up in Kev’s or wandering the town just hanging around as usual.
On a poetic note:
Creative Release:
My hand glides acroos your surface;
Satiny smooth wood as glass.
A small reverb of my touch;
echoes within.
You weight balances;
like a fine chain around my neck.
Nestling in against my chest;
Strap stretched across my shoulders.
I strike downward at first;
A sweet sound envelopes.
Strum a few notes;
Your strings sing effortlessly.
You full history unknown;
I often wonder where you’ve been.
You sit silently on my stand;
Waiting for creative release.
February 2, 2006
Happy days today! I got my exam results for the past week and a half! the two exams I had were the two continuous assessments worth the most marks of any CA’s all year. Each assessment was worth 15% of the overall year and I got 11% in Business Management and 14.6% in Information Systems Engineering. My lecturer in ISE laughed at the expression on my face whe he handed back my result; Complete SHOCK
Gig coming up tomorrow night! can’t wait; starting to feel a wee bit nervous (which reminds me I have to make a set-list) but I’ll be ok. Last week was the one that mattered most to me; hence, why I was so nervous. I’ll play better with less nerves tomorrow; Or so thankfully I’ve managed to convince myself 
I have to attened a meeting tonight for the clubs and societies in the Dinn Rì in Carlow as president of the Fencing club up here. Its all good though as we get a free dinner in the restaraunt and a free pass to the Foundry (Dinn Rì’s nightclub). We just have to sit in for a talk on methods of improving our club and promoting it around the college. I’m giving my pass to Trevor as a small present he’s going out with his classmates to celebrate his last Thursday night in Carlow before he leaves the college (and on that note).
A shocking development occured last night. My housemate Trev announced to me that he’s dropped out of college and is moving out of the house within the next week. I’ll miss the chap as he and I get on like a house on fire. Looks like it’ll be me and the Swede’s and our housmate Noel who none of us know as he locks himself in his room 24/7. Our original theory is (and bear with me on this………no pun intended) that he lives in his room with his imaginary friend who is a red and white polar bear by the name of Sanka; this is a typical example of the things you come up with when you have a bit too much time on your hands. Seriously though he never says more to us then “The music is too loud, turn it down”; its a wee bit weird.
With Trev leaving I was offered the option to move into his room by my land lady; since my room is half the size and the rent is the same. So it looks like I’ll be moving rooms at some stage next week! That’ll be fun
On another note lets see what I come up with today I’m starting to enjoy my daily poetic breaks from college:
Falling:
You went early last night.
Strangley lonely without you.
Makes sense to me;
But what about you?
How do you feel?
Find my mind drifting of late;
With a tell tale smile on my face.
Am I alone?
Do you feel the same?
Too early to ask; too soon to know.
I feel like I’m falling;
But not from a height.
Yet through cloud.
Too early to tell you;
Too soon to know for sure.
So I sit and wonder;
Mind drifting again.
I’m falling;
A tell tale smile on my face.
February 1, 2006
Well my break from tests didn’t last long but it was good while it lasted; I’ve got a Systems Administration test coming up on the 10th of February. I’m not too worried though I still have plenty of time to revise; and its one of my stronger subjects.
Currently sitting in one of the labs in the library; off for a few hours so I’m working on a web page assignment due for Friday. Complicated stuff but I’ll get through it; there are a few benefits to being an eternal optomist
Kev came up for a visit last night; unexpected but extremely welcome. I only realsied this morning that he is only the second person to come up for a visit and the first in over a year to call up. Funny considering Kilkenny’s only 25 mins or so down the road.
Gig is coming up on Friday and I’m going to take all the tips I was given last week and implement them this week. I’ve always believed its better to learn from your mistakes then to regret making them in the first place (can’t change time after all) and this is a good chance to show just what I’ve learned in one simple week.
Kev said the quality of the recordings from the gig last week is excellent; I can’t wait to hear it. Its so cool just being able to do something you love and entertain people at the same time.
Feeling poetic again; seem to be writing a lot more of late. Todays creation is…….
Things ( don’t regret learn):
I sit in the clouds as my life flashes by.
A warm glowing glint In a hurricanes eye.
The things that I’d squandered or driven away.
Are now coming back to me clearer than day.
The things that I’d learned from lifes brief insights.
That just made me stronger prepared me to fight.
The things that I’d needed but never could see.
The times that I’d struggled to simply be free.
But I don’t regret; I’ve learned much in my time.
Experience made me; A man in my prime.
Not my best IMO (but it ryhmes :P) just floated out.
January 31, 2006
No more tests for a while!!! its been two months since I didn’t know that there was a Continuous assessment on the horizon!! Had one today it was worth 15% but I think I did reasonably well; and I studied like mad for this one. Well by mad I mean I actually studied for this one Life is good! feeling poetry inspired so lets see what comes out today shall we….
Simple:
My mind is far way;
over hills,
mountains,
rivers,
streams
And god knows what else.
Its floating and searching;
looking,
longingly,
for the one,
I’m not psychic,
but that’d be fun.
Make thing easier;
You know?
No doubts,
Worries,
Questions in the dark,
Just answers.
Pure and undeniably true;
Simple.
January 30, 2006
Making up for lost time;
Pen in my hand.
Pad on the desk;
Should be a crime.
But I’m not there;
I’m physically here now.
The desks too far away;
My attention also.
So I sit and ponder;
Mind endlessly wanders.
Thats not why I’m here;
But I’m content.
Not by my own hand;
But by a saving grace.
Thoughts of another;
Make me smile.
January 23, 2006
My head is empty right now;
Thoughts and memories inconsequential.
One thought remains.
Its easy to think;
Making your desires come true.
Something more difficult.
I can blame it on many things;
Lack of confidence.
Personal Historical Repetitive Uncertainty.
Any of the above;
Make more than enough sense to me.
At least.
I wish I was better at this;
I wish I could be more open.
Reveal what I’m thinking, feeling.
Some fools have all the luck;
Others just have to make do.
And hope.
Rattle the bars of your emotional cage;
Once in a while .
Try to break free.
No use crying over spilt milk;
Water under the bridge.
Work up the courage before its too late.
Just go for it;
And what about rejection?
Dismay.
What about rejection!;
You only live Once.
Once is more than enough.
You say that now;
Not a few years down the line.
Live life!
Don’t let your petty worryings hold you back;
Be the person you know you can be.
Have Courage, Be strong!
It’ll all work out;
You’ll see!
And if it doesn’t then what?
You can’t survive on ifs and buts;
Thats not living.
Is it?
No its not;
But what if I’m wrong?
Then live with it!
January 17, 2006
Retained:
I met her once but for a moment,
Yet I still retain the memory of her face.
And even though my life stood still,
but for an instant;
an eternity was passed within her grace.
I could not expect the quick emotion,
That in that moment searched to;
steal my breath away.
My mind ensnared just by her presence;
I felt as though that I were made of clay.
She’ll never know just what I pondered;
As we spent the night discussing lifes events.
Though with the dawning of the sun;
We were quickly parted.
I prayed this wouldn’t be the end.
January 13, 2006
Ages follow Ages (13-01-06 12:30pm) :
You’ll never see it,
The Darkness inside,
I used to be one of you,
But I’m no longer blind.
I thought that I knew everything,
but nothings all I found,
Swirling shapes in darkness,
Shadows cloaked in cloud.
I can not forget it,
Or the way it feels,
I’m no longer empty,
Time turns like a wheel.
Ages follow Ages,
Stretching from the past,
And when all things are said and done,
These words will be my last.
Just wrote this spur of the moment; might turn it into a song…… as it stands I’ll christen it a poem (for the moment anyway).
