Land of the Giant

No more tests for a while!!! its been two months since I didn’t know that there was a Continuous assessment on the horizon!! Had one today it was worth 15% but I think I did reasonably well; and I studied like mad for this one. Well by mad I mean I actually studied for this one Life is good! feeling poetry inspired so lets see what comes out today shall we….

Simple:

My mind is far way;
over hills,
mountains,
rivers,
streams
And god knows what else.

Its floating and searching;
looking,
longingly,
for the one,
I’m not psychic,
but that’d be fun.

Make thing easier;
You know?
No doubts,
Worries,
Questions in the dark,
Just answers.

Pure and undeniably true;

Simple.

Making up for lost time;
Pen in my hand.
Pad on the desk;
Should be a crime.

But I’m not there;
I’m physically here now.
The desks too far away;
My attention also.

So I sit and ponder;
Mind endlessly wanders.
Thats not why I’m here;
But I’m content.

Not by my own hand;
But by a saving grace.
Thoughts of another;
Make me smile.

I only discovered this song the other day; and its become a favourite already. Upon searching the net I couldn’t find the lyrics anywhere so I transcribed them. The chorus of this song speaks to me on a personal level. I’m pretty sure I got them word for word.

Nizlopi’s “Clear”:

Now I’m naked with you,
In this third storey Oxford,
Wow I’m shaking with you,
Huge feelings, huge feelings.

While you feel them too,
But in a different way than I do,
Yeah I’m all geared up by you,
little in love too,
little in love.

And we didn’t get it clear;
And we didn’t get it clear yeah.

Cos’ I need someone to,
Really give myself up too,
And you want it to.
Well our hearts are open,
But are rarely spoken too by anyone;
That language frightens them.

And you’re not made of iron;
Infact you’re more scared then I am.
Infact you’re more fair than me.
And you’ve got less power then men
cos men have driven you crazy.

And we never get it clear;
And we never get it clear.

Cos’ I need someone to,
Really give myself up too,
And you want it to.
Well our hearts are open,
But are rarely spoken too by anyone;
That language frightens them.

Cos’ though I miss you,
when I kiss you;
we rarely let go.
And I wan’t to go
To that feeling of
To the ceiling;
Whats this souring
Where we only just begin

What you do when you’re;
Blown apart, blown apart?
Love is harsh like Napoleon Bonaparte.
You’re loose and the blues speak through you
Who can deny a voice that is so true.

I’m amazed by you darling
even though you treat me like Joseph Stalin
I’m gonna train my heart like a shaolin
monk that will never throw the towel in.

Cos’ I need someone to
Really give myself up too,
And you want it to.
Well our hearts are open,
But are rarely spoken too by anyone;
That language frightens them.

So clear you’re room out,
And clear you’re mind out,
And clear your eyes out,
Lets get it clear now.

Clear your soul out,
Just get it clear now,
You pour your heart out,
You pour your heart out,
To me ohhh………

Well now that I’m back to my good ol’ free college broadband I can finally get round to putting up some photos of the gig the other night. Gig was good and I got some useful pointers on performing that I’m going to implement into my next performance. These are as follows:

• Make a Set List (Thanks Kev)
• Focus on the mic and relax more; don’t hide away (Thanks Maurice)
• Work on song structure a bit more (Thanks Paddy)

Hopefully these will help me improve a bit more; and hopefully I won’t have a cold for the next gig (next Friday). I just uploaded these pics from the other night!:

Maurice Ramsbottom - Guitar Hero!

Kentar (thats me!) playing support for Maurice!

Kevin Reade sound engineer extraordinaire! (full time legend)

Paul Harmon……… likes Cats & Radiohead (and recording the gig; thanks man!)

A shadow of my former self………

I uploaded a 12 second clip of me playing redemption song in Ryan’s (found it on my camera!) its not great but I like it. (Warning you should only watch this if you have broadband or some such; its approx 6MB in size) Hopefully it’ll work……….

Click HERE: for Kentar’s 12 sec rendition of Redemption Song (I would advise BROADBAND!)

Right, I’m pumped full of meds, Wrapped in my warmest of woolens and nervous as hell! Gig is tonight and my cold hasn’t fully gone away; my voice is a wee bit muffled. I’m taking Lemsip max cold & flu relief and praying for a lucky break tonight.

Sound check is about 7 so I should be ok; the longer I’m up and about the better. I jjst need to relax a bit; always difficult before a gig and a little bit of nerves is always good (a cold on the other hand is not :()

Just finishing a lab report due for today and then I’m off; had a test this morning. didn’t go too well but I studied for it so I’m not feeling guilty. Got my four originals and maybe three or so covers lined up for tonight.
All in all life is going really well

Woke up today and feel like I’ve managed to develop a cold during the night joy of joys; I’m playing support for Mossy tomorrow so this is exactly the sort of thing I don’t need right now.

Paulie’s recording the gig; and I don’t wan’t my voice to be all muffled and stuff. I wan’t my songs to come out with the full ability of my voice behind them. I need to go find some magical medicine asap.

Nervous as hell about the gig. I saw the article about it in the Kilkenny Voice and that sort of publicity means that this could be the largest audience I’ve played in front of so far; and the last thing I need right now is a cold.

Currently listening to every bit of Nick Drake I can get my hands on! Why didn’t I listen to more of this stuff before! Its exactly my type of music; absolutely brilliant, chilled out, relaxing, acoustic. Thanks to Hazel I may just have discovered a whole new musical influence

Typical tuesday and no intention of alliteration. Just sitting in a lab writing a long and complex (and mostly pointless) website so I can show my lecturer that I can do what we’ve been doing in college. Suppose I’m not the only one considering the whole class has to do it; but its just pointless!

In other news I’m in cracking form today and everythings going well! Trying to get fully ready for this gig with Mossy on Friday! Happy days! I’ll add more stuff later just running to a lab now. Life is good, I’m happy

My head is empty right now;
Thoughts and memories inconsequential.
One thought remains.

Its easy to think;
Making your desires come true.
Something more difficult.

I can blame it on many things;
Lack of confidence.
Personal Historical Repetitive Uncertainty.

Any of the above;
Make more than enough sense to me.
At least.

I wish I was better at this;
I wish I could be more open.
Reveal what I’m thinking, feeling.

Some fools have all the luck;
Others just have to make do.
And hope.

Rattle the bars of your emotional cage;
Once in a while .
Try to break free.

No use crying over spilt milk;
Water under the bridge.
Work up the courage before its too late.

Just go for it;
And what about rejection?
Dismay.

What about rejection!;
You only live Once.
Once is more than enough.

You say that now;
Not a few years down the line.
Live life!

Don’t let your petty worryings hold you back;
Be the person you know you can be.
Have Courage, Be strong!

It’ll all work out;
You’ll see!
And if it doesn’t then what?

You can’t survive on ifs and buts;
Thats not living.
Is it?

No its not;
But what if I’m wrong?
Then live with it!

Why does the weekend have to end!?! Its not fair; oh well suppose it has to be done but that doesnt mean I have to like it! . Finished my presentation for today last night and used my Swedish house mates as my test audience. I think I have the basics down but I’ll just have to see once I go in.

Woke up with a bit of a cold this morning I’m hoping it’ll be gone by tonight; one of the many benefits of having an almost invincible immune system on occasion. Seriously I have to get rid of it rather quick; gig coming up and what not!.

Had a cracker of a weekend; went out with the guys and just had a great time listening to music, having the odd pint, and just relaxin and talking about life the universe and such

Think I’ve got poetry or somesuch in my head today; just got that feeling, so there may be something going up here later on…………. ohhh the ensuing tension

Happy days Friday is here; didn’t get a chance to post anything yesterday! had an ISE (Information Systems Engineering) continuous assessment, so I was in severe cram mode. Test went well though so I’m happy.

Just practicing away getting ready for this gig with Maurice next week so hopefully it will all go well; trying to work on some new material in my spare time seem to be writing far more poetry than lyrics though! or lyrics that eventually become poetry :P.

Went to fencing last night and had a blast; time gone by so fast it doesn’t feel like a month and a half since our last training session. We’re hoping on entering a competition a month up until March! I said I’d be up for it as long as it doesn’t interfere with college

Just browsing the net this morning and I came across the MSNBC Photo Archive there are some amazing shots in there that everyone should see. Its gives a brief insight into the good the bad and the beautiful and ugly sides to life.

Well its Friday and that means it back to KK for me; heading out with the lads Saturday night its going to be good craic! Life is good